At 9:30am, when I finally pulled myself out of bed, after another restless night of sleep (and disturbing dreams related to my two episodes of Dexter just before bed), I knew that today was stretched before me without any grandiose plans. No adventures in the works. Slate clear.
And so to find myself in the afternoon basking in the cuteness of Nico (and his mama, Valerie) as I sipped green tea and fawned over a spicy bowl of green curry with shrimp...was a delightful surprise. Nico's outfit taught me the months in French. His mom taught me, once again, just how joyous having a new baby could be.
With each hug that I give a friend, I am aware that I might have Nuggies swaddled up between us the next time. This afternoon may be the final mid-week lunch that I relish "solo" for a while (no offense, Noodle, "solo" is a technicality).
I've decided that due dates are cruel. Most midwifery or natural childbirth books, blogs, websites strongly advise you against paying them any mind...but I'm a creature of the Western Way. I have long-since marked my calendar with Nuglett's potential arrival date...so it's just a waiting game at this point. Constant Facebook messages asking if I've had the baby. Emails inquiring if I feel anything yet. Sweet voicemails curious about what's happening.
Nothing. Nada. Zip. Zero.
Today I squatted, cat/cowed, meditated, imagined, talked to and rubbed the belly, played the "laboring" soundtrack, walked, ate spicy food, swam my heart out...and I go to bed knowing that there's a seemingly infinite amount of time before I could finally meet M---- or N----- in the flesh.
How is that for a teaser on the names? Fun, huh?