Wedding

September 10, 2008

Until the Canaries or the wedding!

By now, Fadi has crossed the Atlantic, landed in Frankfurt and taken the speed train to Cologne.  Her olive cheeks, at last resting in her own bed, have long since dried of yesterday's morning tears at LAX. 

Water rattles in the tea kettle.  It is my first morning to etch out this year's routine.  My years cycle through a school calendar, thus, my new year has recently begun.  In lieu of the meditation-yoga-Sushi. Last days with Fadi 006 blog-gym routine, I have often opted over the last month to frolic too late, waking groggy and stumbling blog-less onto the freeway, finally reaching work in desperate need for caffeine.  My body kindly requests respite from the Krispy Kreme, "Sexy Girl" sushi rolls (shown here), Kinder chocolate, and sparse exercise.

The most magnificent flavor to recently dance an Irish jig in my mouth was the Cuban cake on Sunday.  Along the bay side of the Peninsula, my Aunt Barbara, set up a blue canopy and invited family down for her Sushi. Last days with Fadi 029birthday.  Holes were dug, strong margaritas were sipped, and after a chilly romp in the murky (slightly questionable) bay water, a Cuban sweet tostada was served.  Imagine a gigantic tortoise-sized tostada shell made of a dark chocolate-pecan encrusted waffle cone.  Layered inside is moist white cake, vanilla flanish-type pudding, pears, peaches, raspberries, and strawberries.  It was divine, not only the cake, but the company, the sand beneath my feet, the berry hue on my face, and the sun slurping up droplets on my skin.

Last night, as we headed to bed, Daniel asked mournfully, "Where's our Fadi?"  I felt a little pull in my chest and I remembered her lilac lips and wet cheeks from our early morning goodbye.  "We will see each other soon," we sniffed.  A Canary Island rendezvous or the one-day wedding of yours truly (no, we're not engaged).  Some event will find us again with red kerchiefs, laughter, and late-night chats.

My porch bench looks lonely.  Her last two crushed cigarettes lie in the blue Croatian ashtray.  Several near-empty bottles of German face wash and body wash sit alone on the bathroom shelf...the wooden earrings she left (or gave?) are on the counter.  Crickets chirp...the paper lands on the scrubby grass...and I know it will be a while until I have marathon discussions with a close girlfriend again.  My friendship circle is lovely; however, with babies, distance, pregnancy, and city life...talk is quickly milked from the udders of already crowded lives.

August 04, 2008

Columbia is a possibility

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I just plucked an aged Berenstain Bears book out from under my tush and grinned.  Tomorrow night I'll be snuggling Daniel under our faux-suede duvet in our monstrous bed; there will be no puzzle pieces lodged in between our pillows, no sincere requests to read Llama, Llama, Red Pajamas "just one more time," no warm babies lying on my chest and occasionally gifting me with a blue-eyed gummy smile...and I'll think back to this patchwork place that I spent so much of these past three weeks.  Thorin who suns himself in the bright corner leaving behind a carpet of dark hair; Ewan who stashes his books and plastic dinosaurs for evening play.

Before writing this post, I had just come in for a drink of water after sticking various rubber finger puppets in the copper twirly on the porch.  This doo-dad is guaranteed to deliver hours of optical illusion to any eave from which it drops.  My mother bought one for each of us at the Sunday farmer's market.  Tucked between the white tents bursting with blueberry lemonade, buffalo jerky, and donut peaches was a gnarled wood pyramid dripping with copper twirlies.  As the metal spirals spin, the object appears to splash up from the coils, when actually there is no movement.  It really is quite fun and I hope all of my future guests will enjoy the orange hued contraption once we hang it on our porch.  I will be certain to document future visitor's reactions in their varying forms of amazement.

83_and_84_trip_to_snoqualmie_and__4These past few days have been luxurious for my senses.  Warm oiled hands kneaded my doughy back at an Aveda spa (Gracias, Kathy), my mother arrived sculpting blintzes swimming in berry sauce, peach 81_and_82_fruit_stand_visit_006cobbler melting in homemade frozen yogurt, and snapper lightly resting in butter.  She has a way of placing both food and memory into the mortar and pestle to mash the two inseparably into your consciousness.  I shudder to think of others, including myself, making these dishes...pure sacrilege to fathom someone else dishing up these delights; however, I'm keenly aware these recipes were not genetically ingrained.  They came down from a quartet of influential women.  Seasonings and general culinary knack hail from Lola, Southern staples from Deanne and Bettie, and the coup d'etat ---peach cobbler from Margaret.

81_and_82_fruit_stand_visit_007_2Iris and I both watched as my mother, hopped up on iced-coffee, and maybe slightly in response to my sour-faced response to "maybe we'll wait on the cobbler," began to plunge into our 22 lb. box of Johnson Orchard peaches with vigor at 10pm.  She pealed and diced each peach, juice spilling over her hands into the pan below.  Flour, cubed butter and water danced delicately in a glass bowl until a rolling pin could nudge the crumbling strips into being.  Soon, the sugar-sprinkled buttered pastry mounted gushing peaches and the pair caramelized together in a hot oven.  Cobbler wafts began just as the ice-cream maker slowed its churn of homemade vanilla frozen yogurt.  My own twin contraption awaits my lactose intolerant fantasies when I get home to Long Beach (thanks, Sparky).  And that was just on Saturday.

Crusty sourdough plunged into bowls of vibrant carrot ginger soup; yellow beets, pears, and shaved parmesan dressed in a delicate vinaigrette; velvet spring risotto with peas and drizzled with olive oil; Tuscan chicken with goat cheese on foccacia 83_and_84_trip_to_snoqualmie_and__3found us on our mother-daughter Sunday afternoon.  We drove for several hours through valleys, in the shadows of the Manastash ridge, into the lush Cascade greenery to find Snoqualmie Falls.  A waterfall splashes 268 feet below the picturesque Salish Lodge (our dining digs are in the upper left of this photo).  Flower baskets gushed, mist from the falls dabbled the chamomile flowers clinging to the cliffs, and the sun shone with gentle radiance on a day filled with conversation.  Both our minds and mouths wound along the highway with questions and perspectives.  We discussed the beauty of sisters and female friendship (when sisters didn't come), my eventual wedding (of which we lightly plan even though "the question" still looms), my parent's divorce (an oldie-but-goody), and a passionate discussion of how Daniel and I "should absolutely NOT go to Columbia" in January (about which I could not muster up enough evidence to counter adequately).

We passed cows grazing near lakes dotted along the highway, horses galloping near dilapidated barns, and she told me of the temperature alarms and smudge pot lighting that used to wake up our neighboring orchardists in the Methow Valley.  During the spring, if the apple buds freeze, the crop is ruined, thus, back in the 70's low temperatures would set off a string of alarms.  Our family friends, the Stennes Family, would awaken, throw on some work clothes and hastily run from row to row, lighting smudge pots.  The thick black smoke and heated oil slightly warmed the air amidst the trees saving the buds and ensuring for at least one more day that the crop would survive.  I was fascinated by the romanticism of this frantic lighting.  I saw dark images of overall-clad farmers, soot on their faces, kneeling down beside the gnarled apple trunks and fanning flames they prayed would cast a warm enough embrace.  Flickering flames casting shadows on worried faces spread throughout the lush apple valley...livelihoods completely naked to Nature's lashing.

With full cameras and bellies, we drove towards home with fewer words and stopped in an old mining town that used to play Cicely, Alaska on television.  Passing time listening to gravel crunching underfoot and leathery Croatian men banter outside of Rosyln_cafe a store hawking dusty Northern Exposure memorabilia.  An enormous MarlinMarlon_brando_roslyn_2 Brando mural (from Wild One) painted on a lumber canvas and famous cafe facades and radio booth windows were captured.  My favorite Roslyn moment was looking up to watch the lanky biker cross the road, all but a denim heart around his genitals covered in worn black leather, faded boots grinding gravel, a tobacco stained beard hiding a gentle smile as he put out his cigarette in the coffee can at my feet, twisting the butt in his fingers until the filter and unburned remnants sprinkled into the sand.

83_and_84_trip_to_snoqualmie_and__5My mind spun with images and my stomach churned the cheesy memories of Shane's homemade pizza as I wriggled under the quilt last night.  My mother and I each lay with our backs facing our opposing lamps, pajamas and pillows, feet and books, all slowly settling into night.  If only Michael Landon had popped his head up the ladder, kissed my braided bonnet head, and said "Goodnight, Half-pint" I would have been certain that I had just spent the day on the prairie.

July 19, 2008

Possessing other eyes

Dsc_0012 Buddy is licking my toes right now.  I can't tell you how distracting this dog's soft little tongue is as I try to focus.  I adore this dog.  He is sweet, will sit with you all day, snuggle with you at night, and chase tossed balls endlessly.  Last night, after an hour long conversation with Daniel it was confirmed that we are officially missing each other at this point.  He is enjoying some sort of Cliff Huxtable "wife's away" experience complete with spicy chicken wings and action-packed dvd's (or those old French movies that put me to sleep) and I was trying to convince Buddy to just calm down and lie still.

July_2007_pictures_106_3There is such a rugged beauty to this part of the state.  Sage brown hills jag across the skyline, dipping into the glimmering Columbia River; orchards cling to sour apple buds on gnarled trunks, and the patchwork of golf course greens spreads below.  Pressed frogs dry in the morning sun on the driveway and Fox news belts out "fair and balanced" reports from the garage. 

Dsc07689Downtown Wenatchee has streets paved in crimson brick and even the Liberty Theater showing "Dark Knight" has old-fashioned charm.  We dined at The Raven after our sore butts emerged into the sunshine following the 2.5 hour creepy-but-excellent, Heath Ledger performance.  I enjoyed the film but did find Christian Bale's Batman voice a little grating.  Krista, my lovely step-sister, served us delicious clam chowder and then battered prawns and fish with fries.  My stomach was caught all day in almost a permanent state of confusion.  One in which I will try and apologize for and correct for the remainder of the weekend.

This is the second summer in which I haven't whipped out my passport and a Lonely Planet and headed to a foreign country. I was jogging along today feeling slightly sorry for myself and upon my return I came across this quote from Marcel Proust:  "The only true voyage of discovery...would be not to visit strange lands but to possess other eyes."  I need to find more meaning within my daily adventures at home, at my brother's, and here at my dad's.  I may not be laughing about some bungled communication with a waiter, sipping on an exotic liquor, or unfurling my mosquito net...but I can find peace and fresh experiences if I'm willing to open my eyes.  Today I'll stay within .5 miles of my dad's house...moving between this computer and the community pool...but I'll be passing by that dried frog, Buddy will be nipping at my heels, my father will want to discuss Iraq/Afghanistan/Obama/Osama or play "name that tune" again with his million gig Ipod loaded with JJ Cale, Too Slim and Taildraggers, Roberta Flack and Dire Straits.  And all of these moments, peeled back, are new and unusual compared to my typical Saturday in Long Beach.

So, here's to local travel...creating my own adventure in my mind, being a better listener, soaking up time with those I so rarely see, and our family gambling adventure tonight up the road. 

***And another toast to my beloved friend Claire who is now married to her husband Greg and enjoying a family clam bake at this very moment.  I love you both!

July 17, 2008

Turn it off...

This morning as I swiped the cat hairs from my mouth and scrambled for my screeching cell phone, I thought of my friend Claire.  Her and her fiance Greg would soon be en route to the airport to begin the Chicagotrevornew_haircut_058_4 final countdown for their wedding this weekend.  I couldn't help but smile as I sneezed into my sporty clothes and began to jog up the largest hill I've ever run.  I thought of Vampire Weekend, the band she recently introduced me to, the scary black boots clicking down the hallway that we both used to fear, red boas and tipsy turns on the dance floor, planning meetings at Hole Mole and climbing up into attics one by one.  I wish I could be there this Saturday as they exchange their beautifully written vows, elegant rings, and romantic glances.  A family ceremony sounds like such a sweet and meaningful way to begin married life; and perfect for a couple who so honor and celebrate family.

When I stumbled back up into my room, I had a picture message.  It was Claire and Greg at the airport.  A few minutes later, a shot of the rings floating in a velvet box.  Wow, this is really happening!  A slight tinge of sadness that I won't be there crept up yet again...but it was easily replaced by such a calming sense of joy for what this weekend holds for them.

It strikes me as odd that most of my close friends live so far away.  The women in my life whose voices always offer such support, humor, and understanding are dabbled in Washington, New Jersey, Illinois, and Germany.  These women always manage to snuggle babies, pursue Ph.D's, and tackle timezones to talk with me.  But why is it that the majority of my closest friends are all so far away?  Does this merely reflect my passion for travel and childhood moves or has my relationship with Daniel in some ways created neglect of the development and maintenance of friendships in the LA area?  I am so grateful for these far-away friends but there are afternoons back home when I wish that just one of them lived down the street.  They could stop over for a glass of wine and my latest attempt at lasagna.  They could look at my photographs or listen to my "wedding-although-not-engaged" plans without thinking them silly. 

I'll be thinking about all of these friends today as I jump into my first day with both my 3 year old nephew and my 6 week old niece.  Right now Iris is wrapped tight against my chest....and I imagine she'll be here most of the day.  Ewan is singing with Elmo and has apparently lost716_wednesday_004_3 his underwear.  My brain is starting to rot from this large amazing television.  Daniel and I made the questionable decision a few months ago to eliminate TV watching and besides the occasional BBC News or chat with Gwen while we cook, we have stuck to our mission.  We didn't stop watching out of intellectual snobbery but rather because I had wriggled into a slight addiction with "The Biggest Loser," and "The Bachelor" (although this one I still sneak on the Internet) and "Entertainment Tonight."  My brain had started to get mushy, bedside books were dusty, and my journal was only 3 pages past January's Italy adventures. 

But here at my brother's there is a beautiful television (if televisions can be called beautiful).  It is a big, shiny, HD, satellite temptation.  I don't know how stay-at-home moms don't all simply melt into the couch all day, nursing, burping, napping, snacking, and watching television.  This is going to be my challenge: to play, imagine, read, dance, listen to music, and sing today with Ewan.  TV must turn off...turn off the TV...but mid-show???...isn't that traumatic for the youngin'?  Maybe we'll finish just this one show....the couch looks so soft. 

July 11, 2008

My Mom

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My childhood aside the Methow River overflows with memories of my mother's smile, patience, and singing.  She had a repertoire of songs for any possible circumstance.  If I was feeling blue, she would launch into "Go Eat Worms" and on a lazy summer's day, long after the asparagus and strawberries had been picked, frozen cherries eaten, and naps taken, a good ol' "Rocky Racoon" or "Puff the Magic Dragon" would float us through the afternoon.  If if it was attention I craved, then a belted out version of "Witchy Woman" would recreate a wooden-spooned version of the shower scene.  And God forbid, you mention Texas...well, then you heard "El Paso."

She laughs any time talking animals grace the television.  Singing treadmill men will put her in stitches and her latest guaranteed chuckle is when she watches the Korean toddler sing "Hey Jude."

This Sunday, if you could see her cursive on the kitchen chalkboard, she is going to make GrStephanotis_2andma Steven's peach cobbler, create gold leaf name cards, sew nursery curtains, deliver a footling breech baby, sketch a stephanotis bridal hair arrangement, nurture her garden, publish her cookbook, attend a yoga class, and paint a watercolor portrait...and when she starts to tire...she'll grind up some of Polly's beans, work it through the labryinth of her Gaggia espresso machine, gently steam a milky foam, online shop for Iris, and then throw together some sort of elaborate dinner that she claims "is just so simple."

I wonder, especially after re-reading my friend Claire's blog, how am I like my mother?  I have a sweater arm (or purse) half-knitted, an orzo salad in the fridge with far too much onion, a wilted orchid, a dead herb garden, and pre-ground coffee from Trader Joes. Her talents certainly didn't transfer directly but her strengths do move through my life in recognizable fashion.  I can follow most recipes, survive Gabriel's yoga class, teach English to retiscent teenagers, and create gifts with Snapfish.  My photography is decent and loving children comes easily.

Of one thing I am certain, if not my mother, she would be my friend.

***This is me yesterday as she begins styling my hair...oh yes, did I forgot to mention she can cut, Old_pics_scans_001_2color, highlight and style your hair?***

July 01, 2008

What's "The Plan"?

Many people have asked me about "The Plan."  I am equally intrigued by my future and since much of it lies in the hands of others (admissions boards and non-profit organizations), it is mere playful speculation that this plan below unfolds.

2008

  • PhotobucketJuly - marvel at the cutest niece & nephew ever up in Washington, Ewan and Lilly (complete with RV trips with Dad, river rafting with Courtney & Carl, and an overlap with Mom)
  • August thru October - teach 10th grade English while the lovely literary Kaitie relishes motherhood
  • November thru December - substitute teach; pack, purge, place all necessary items in storage; sell one of our cars; soak up time with family, friends, babies; celebrate the holidays with our families and friends

2009Aashish

  • January thru June - work for a non-profit organization somewhere in South America (learning/studying Spanish, dancing salsa, sampling cocktails, finding Aashish)
  • *April* - find out which graduate schools accepted Daniel, choose a school, toast to Daniel's future success in one of the following MBA programs (ordered by his preference, I would switch Michigan with Columbia):                #1 UC Berkeley, #2 University of Michigan, #3 Columbia, #4 Stanford, #5 Duke

            ****Daniel, take a deep breath****

  • July - get married (ballsy of me, isn't it?)....click here for my favorite wedding video of all time, and yes, I know that somewhere above there needs to be an engagement.  But much to my dismay, not all things can I plan, organize, fix, and orchestrate.  This is one year away.
  • August - relocate to one of aforementioned graduate schools
  • September- begin working (potential options include: teaching, non-profit work, teacher coaching, German Master's program, education graduate school, ESL graduate school, administrative assistant, barista, waitress, personal trainer, yoga teacher, nanny)
  • To Be Continued....

June 28, 2008

Jumping the Gun

This is one of many posts in which my zeal will overstep the reality.  I have yet to be asked "The Question" but I found the coolest site for 8mm wedding videography.  I watched "Claire and Leonard" with my mom and the grainy images, infused with the hip soundtrack, and void of the "blah-blah-blah" typical speeches of other wedding videos...made my heart happy.  I REALLY would love to have this type of image from our special day.

So, enjoy dipping into the cool videos...but be wary of checking on their prices.  This is the lurking monster.

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